SOMETIMES. I look for self worth in the wrong places.
I've only been doing this blogging stuff for about six months, but it immediately opened up new avenues for me to judge my overall success as a human being. Blogging, tweeting, followers, etsy, favorites, comments, stats. All have become ways to make or break my day.
And that's silly. Right?!?! Ridiculous, actually. It's a good thing that the hubs doesn't love me any better or worse on a given day depending on how many people read my blog.
And it's also a good thing that my mom doesn't love me any more or less depending on how many people favorite the new item in my shop.
And it's pretty nice that my sister still wants to go thrifting with me even when she sees how many followers I have on twitter.
And my friends still like me too! Let's be honest, lots of them don't even READ this blog!
And really, life already has enough obstacles without allowing my computer to tell me that I'm not as good as so and so over there. I mean, doesn't it??
So. After pondering this problem to the root, the long and the short of it is really just this: it's time for ME to start being nicer to little ol' ME.
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." - Psalm 139: 13-14
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ReplyDeleteYES! As wonderful as internet socializing and connections can be, they are just a small, very small, portion of this wonderful world and all of the people in it. I know a cuddle from my niece means way more to me than an etsy sale or extra twitter friend. Both things are great, but certain things just MATTER more, right? :)
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Such an honest post! But we all go through it. I try so hard not to focus on the numbers, but it's hard not to, when they're RIGHT THERE! Regardless of your numbers, I really enjoy your blog!
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